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[vintage_belle]

What do you tell someone when they ask you what's wrong? "Well, ya see, I'm just a little upset right now 'cause I have to deal with you hanging all over your girlfriend, who happens to be one of my best friends, when I all really wish was that one of you had chose me."? How does that sound? Beauti-fucking-ful, don'tcha think? And of course since I can't say that, I have to smile all pretty-like and play stupid, "Wrong? Nothing's wrong. I'm tired." You know, the usual.

I also just had a realization. I'm gonna be fucking 18 in less than two weeks. January 8th, yo. That's quite scary. I'm getting so oooooold *cries* And now I have to think of smart ass New Year's Resolutions that I know I'll never keep. Aside from working on my goddamned English paper. I hate AP English with a burning passion, and Pere Goriot can kiss my ass. I'm going to contemplate my re-creation of Arwen's "Requiem" dress now.

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[horror-scope.livejournal.com]

=_= Scrolling down my friends page and I read your post that sounded exactly like a problem I can't get my stupid ass over. I guess it's a little different, and just when I think I don't care anymore I realize I still do. My best friend has totally been taken away from me and that's only a little of what annoys the hell out of me. I do the same thing though.

tja, well I'll be 17 soon.

That's not exactly my problem, but it hits close to home...

[strawberrysmile.livejournal.com]

I'm turning 18 on March 6th. And I cannot wait, because I want my real life to begin. I've been lonesome for too long, and hardly anyone knows of it. Not even my parents know how lonely I really am, even though I act all genki all the time. I act genki to forget, to put myself into a state of happiness, to fill in the void. And it seems like the only way out is out of this house. I just need to wait. I experienced a worser life growing up, but I put the past behind and I don't regret what happened to me as a younger girl. Just remember...no matter how hard life bites, bite back...put it behind with a cold shoulder. It's a cruel lesson to learn, but no pains, no gains.

Advice for your problem: Don't waste time lamenting, or if u do just let it all out in one big cry or something like that. Then bide your time because they cannot go out forever (unless if they marry or something,) and if it seems like they're inseparable, try detaching yourself by getting to know other guys. You're only going to bring yourself into a deeper black abyss if u keep up your despair.

Re: That's not exactly my problem, but it hits close to home...

[horror-scope.livejournal.com]

I have the genki-disease too. I really hate myself for being so fake sometimes.

I'm not sure if your advice was for me or pcky_addict, but either way, it's just easier said than done. I must've said that a million times. I think now though, I'm getting over it b/c I did have one big cry and since then I feel like I really don't care anymore. I guess I'm just gonna have to see though

Re: That's not exactly my problem, but it hits close to home...

[vintage-belle.livejournal.com]

I think we all have the genki-disease at some point in our lives, but some of us really have it worse than others. I hate myself too, sometimes, when I lie about how I'm feeling, but sometimes it just doesn't pay to go into it. Especially when I don't know what I'm supposed to say, or, as in the case in my livejournal, the person asking what's wrong is part of the problem. I haven't had a good cry in a really long time -- it seems like the only time I ever cry anymore is when I'm at a depressing movie.

Re: That's not exactly my problem, but it hits close to home...

[horror-scope.livejournal.com]

I'm just a victim. Instead of getting into problems or getting through them I play of dumb, happy, stupid w/e and it ends there. I know that's not me, but now I think I made it a part of myself and I always try so hard not to be like that anymore.

Re: That's not exactly my problem, but it hits close to home...

[vintage-belle.livejournal.com]

I know I shouldn't be lamenting. Problem is, the guy lives in Madison right now for college, and the girl lives in New Jersey. So they're both so stuck on each other 'cause they're far apart, that I have to hear from *both* of them how much they miss the other.

I've tried looking for other guys, but trust me, it's next to impossible. No guy wants a girl that's their height and can lift or rig the same amount of weight as they can. They especially don't want one that can counter their knowledge and can prove them wrong. I do know other guys, but none of them have an interest in me, and I have not interest in them other than friends.

hey

[(Anonymous)]

it's ok... I know what you feel like, really; I felt that way about someone in my freshman year... it can be really hard, but you just have to look on the bright side of things and try to... I dunno, keep your chin up. ^_^;; Don't forget your friends are here for you. ^_^ -Liz (and olga says: it must suck to keep on wearing a hapy mask, so why don't you just bitch at some people for no reason. that's what i do. it helps ^^)

Re: hey

[vintage-belle.livejournal.com]

I would bitch at people for no reason, but I'm afraid I'd bitch at the wrong person. The last people I'd want to take my frustrations out on are my friends, and they're the only ones I really have close contact with. And, by the way, there *is* no bright side to this to look at. I just need to find other things to do to keep me busy, which is getting harder and harder, as the girl wants to see me since we never really get to, and keeps bringing the guy with her.

Re: hey

[strawberrysmile.livejournal.com]

An...an anonymous person who uses my real name!?? Who are u!! Anybody I happen to know irl??